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But if your heart's not in it, for real.
Please dont try to fake what you dont feel.
If love's already gone,
Its not fair to lead me on.
Cause, i would give the whole world, for you.
Anything you'd ask of me, i'll do.
But i wont ask you to say,
I'd rather walk away.
If your heart's not in it.
note the change:
raeraerae_@hotmail.com
yes.
damn hotmail has failed me again.
why am i still in track?
yes.simply because i want to stay in cedar.
i admit not for the passion of track.
arghhh.
but i seriously think i should run.
burn the fats in me.
yea baby.
school's boring!
3 hours of chinese daily.
did i mention that my chinese improved?
from a fail to an a2.
hoho.
dont give me that look.
really hope i can be the top for history!
though i didnt really expect myself to do well.
having to study only one of of 9 chapters.
and that ONE chapter didnt come out at all.
it was like a damn flunk?
structured essays spoiled my mood for the whole paper because i anyhow come out wif factors and crapped through.
sourcebased.argh sucks.
and then!!
i came in second in class wid an a1.
heh.dont give me that look again.
yea.having been blogging.
didnt talk much abt my results.
i did badly this time?
what a disappointment.
rebellious self building up in me.
shrugs.i am innocent.
just the stages of puberty you know.
mrtay has cold eyes.
and i simply hate talking to him.
and looking at him in the eyes.
sends shivers down my spine.
Os are drawing so nearer.
yes i prayed for qian's practical today.
the church just outside the road of my house is almost complete in its construction.
soon,i can be in the presence of the Lord again.
i'm a sinful child.
gravity by embrace.
embrace by gravity.
hoho.its so confusing.
anyway,the song simply rocks.
computers down.
i miss kazaa.
but hey!
i miss you.
even even more.
and i'll never,gonna leave yr side.
remember this song baby?
so much for now.
thank you.
:)
i love you.
now and always.
thank you for everything.
raeraerae_@hotmail.com
fuck.
hotmail seems to be failing me again.
or probably one of my enemies hacked my account.
again.
grrrrr.
i may have to create a new account again.
tell me.
what the fuck.
lifes been bad.
failed relationships.
but sighs.
i dont wish to turn back the hands of time though.
so much for today.
i miss you.
woooaaaahhhh!
hello.yesterday i was back from singapore idol.
one word to describe everything:
ROCKS.
the atmosphere there is damn great?!
our group of 15 pple really screamed our lungs out.
the loudest group in the theater?
and so many of the idols waved to us mans.
christopher waved to us.
maia too!
so did. . . oli!
dick lee and christopher blew flying kisses at us.
please la.
not like they waved and blew kisses at other pple.
they were at us okay.
we were sitiing at the gallery.
and they must tilt their heads such that they can see us.
woohs.so its us its us.
jumps jumps*
oli just couldnt stop waving at us!
after the show she like keep waving and waving at us can.
she loves us to much.
=))))
screams*
i pity those jerry church friends?
they support someone that nobody likes.
hohoho.
that was like really funny!
after the show was like the greatest?
so many pple crowding at the entrance to see their idols.
some many fat pangnius.
all small and sticky.
squeezing to the front.
grrr.
me and my sister wanted so much to take picture wif oli!
me and so smart me.
we went to find her mother to have the right.
some special time for us wif oli.
hees!
got to hug daphny.
she's short and cute!
the best is.
i hugged oli for like..
damn long!
close to 10secs can!
she's damn nice to hug.
the feeling reminds me of hugging ganma.
you get what i mean?
oli recognised us as screaming and screaming for her!
argghhh.
hahaha!
changed my impression of oli.
used to support slyvester.
but now. . .
i support oli!
partly cos she's so nice.
and cos i didnt get to see sly!
and turn crazy over him.
heard that he had too many fans waiting for him.
he went out from another entrance.
when i boarded the cab.
saw him outside surrounded by alot of pple ks!
grrrrr.
support oli.
=)) thank you.
anti-you club.
consists of me and me only.
yes.i hate you.
so shutup you bitch.
my punishment for watching a movie not for my age.
rated nc16.
there is a reason behind it la.
scared me out of my wits in the cinema.
but i woke up.
God is so powerful.
and how can God's favourite angel fall to become satan.
thats so sad.
i'll be watching singapore idol live tomorrow!
whee.
please.support slyvester.
and all his church pple.
stop voting for jerry la.
cos he cant sing.
slyvester's still the best!
history exam turned out such a disappointment.
first time.i spotted wrongly.
couldnt hand in a blank page.
hence crapped my way through.
there goes my top position.
thank you.
training starts tomorrow.
means i must go to school.
boos.so sucky.
yawns.long hours under the hot sun.
doing nothing but running.
=(
aint nobody.
loves me better.
makes me happy.
makes me feel this way.
aint nobody.
loves me better than you.
support slyvester!
and my little tamago baby beegumm pig.
thank you
come kiss me baby =)
finally am here again!
ages since i've been here already.
exams ard the corner.
wow.
chinese exam tomorrow!
daddy asked me to come online for him.
wants me to help him dL songs.
not supposed to touch the computer.
rule of her.
oops.just a break okay?
i just love the location of my house now la.
just walk down so many places to go already.
chomp chomp.
good food.
had the chance to eat there but wasnt hungry!
and cartel must be like grrr me la.
take up their space for like so long.
i was mugging.
hees.
support slyvester!
hes super cute la.
singapore is one stupid bunch of pple.
jessea is out.like wth.
jerry and christopher cant sing.
grrrr.
still abit of yr face in my mouth.
muaks.
Rachel / Rae
24th nov 1989
raeraerae_@hotmail.com
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